Hold on to that feeling!

Thursday was always a "short" day in my life. School was dismissed at least an hour early for teacher meetings, if not earlier due to inclement weather. So I would either go home or go to club meetings or whatever, depending on what was going on.

Today was kinda long. I babysat my brother and sister while my mom went to a hair appointment. My sister's close friend called her and invited her to go swimming, so she left before my mom came home. Then my mom paid me after she went to the library to return some stuff and I left around 4:30 to do a little shopping. I ended up getting dinner at Chick Fil-A, which is amazing. And then I bought a ring from Claire's that was on clearance. I have worn a ring on my left ring finger since the end of February and haven't removed it since a particular Wednesday. So I bought another ring, this time for my right ring finger. I made sure the particular ring fit my ring finger (and it does), and so now I plan on wearing it forever.

And when I got home I just watched a good majority of Zoolander, and then waited til 9:00 to switch it to the "16 and Pregnant: Life after Labor" reunion show. I mentioned in an earlier blog that I loved the show. It's on MTV, and documented a different girl each episode that was 16 or older and pregnant. It started when the girl was about 6-7 months pregnant and ended when the baby was a few months old.

I watched the show at the suggestion of my friend Lauren, who watched it and liked it. The first episode I watched, a girl from my home state, Farrah, was the girl documented. She was a popular cheerleader and raised her daughter Sophia with her mom helping her. Her ex-boyfriend was not in the picture, and it was later reported that he was killed in a car accident shortly before Sophia was born.

I made it a priority to tune in every week unless I was unable to. I watched a good majority of the season, in part or in whole. My favorite couple for this season would have to be Whitney and her boyfriend Weston, who reside in Georgia. Whitney and her mom were having babies due around the same date. Whitney's half-brother Taccoa was born 2 weeks before her son, Weston Jr. I loved the fact that Weston was there for Whitney and did things for their son without complaning. He just did it. On the reunion show tonight, it was revealed that their son had a genetic condition where his liver was enlarged, and because of that he will not be able to play sports when he's older, and he can't smoke or drink (which nobody should to begin with. One drink is okay, but you should be able to control it. I don't plan on drinking because I don't want to lose myself).

And now I will give my thoughts on the whole issue of teen pregnancy.

I am 19 and still a virgin. I don't know if I want to wait til I'm married to lose my virginity, but I DEFINITELY want to be married when I have kids. I will be done with college, married and hopefully I'll have a steady job when I have kids. I just don't think I could handle having a kid until I was married. I currently don't have a job, and I'm kind of searching, but at the same time I'd have to quit in a month anyway to go back to school.

On the off chance I DID get pregnant at my age, I would keep the baby. I believe abortion is wrong, and after going through all the changes through the 9 months, I just would not be emotionally able to give my baby up for adoption, because it's like, my child. I had to go through all that and I just would not be emotionally ready to give my child away. Catelynn and Tyler from this season were VERY strong to do that. And they are a sweet couple too. They were my second-favorite, after Whitney and Weston.

Like I mentioned earlier, I am not sure if I want to wait til I'm married to have sex. But if I decide to do it, I will be safe, because I want to be married when I have kids. I talked about it with my friend Amy, and she said that if I do decide to do it, to make sure my guy doesn't bail on me. I want to be in a serious relationship. My last (and so far, only) boyfriend implied he wanted it, but I was 15 and he was almost 17, and we were only together for 4 months. I wasn't ready. So I said no, and then 2 days later he broke up with me and gave me a typical excuse for why he's breaking up with me. And it took me 4 years to realize the truth. It took me 4 years to realize he was wrong for me. But I've moved on and am still searching for the right guy. I may have found him, but I'm not sure yet. We'll see this fall.

So, that's my rant/story of today. I am leaving for Des Moines, IA tomorrow, but will bring my computer with me so I can continue to tell you about my adventures and life stories. It should be pretty fun.

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***-Lily-***